Hello, my introduction, I've been a lurker here seems like forever, and finally decided to dive in. Mostly due to the fact that i'm on here every day while Im at work! I'm sure as with all here, I have been into cars as long as I can recall. My dad & uncle had some great cars when I was young. My grandfather used to take me to Fremont when I was a kid. Those days had pretty heavy impact on me. My tastes slowly gravitated to more traditional cars. Some racing experience, mostly high school drags & street racing. Car progress has slowed, 28 roadster, Tri 5s, etc. I've worked in the family Automotive Business for the last 10yrs as a welder/fabricator/painter.....most cars i'm around on a daily basis are late models. But I have also been around & worked on some race cars. It's a pretty cool job I suppose. I hope to maybe contribute to the site w/some of my experience and mostly hope to gain much more knowledge here. Gonna post pics soon, I'll try to post some of the projects....I have a lot of projects going on at one time with me and I think thats one my problems. I also have ***ual compulsions that occasionaly get the hold of me but prove not to be very damaging. My semi-traditional rodding disorder confounds the situation and is the like cause of my neurological inbalances that fuel my behavior. Im almost ocd but my compulsions are not mental they are actions, so I have come to the conclusion I have some sort of of addiciton and or maybe ***ual compulsions? I have several compulsions equally damaging. I am an exhibitionist when out tooling around in my HoT Rod. I usually do it in safe venues like parks known for *** and what not, but have urges to do it around cops etc ....such strong urges that I just want to BURN OUT in front of everyone regardless of legal consequences. I am deeply ashamed to say that i become obsessed with Street racing individuals and have uncontrollable urges to shout ***ual diatribes to them and pounce on them while sleeping. I know how horrible this is and the damage done to these persons are inexcusable. At first it didnt seem like a big deal so I dont think that has had a major impact on me. As I have said I have no ability to have a normal daliy drive to work and have ended up relying on craigslist for my racing encounters and when manic I tend to cruise obsessively. The urges seem uncountrollable and I am having more anxiety now than I have ever had in my life. I know its bad .... Speaking of delusions, yet another complicating factor is presented in my severe and utter confusion in social situations. My delusions of reference makes my reality seem maybe ominouse hyper***uality? My antisocial coworkers sitting beside me know how to deal with it by now... (m***ive erection etc.) and toy with my subliminal desperation. I really like people, I shouldnt uncaringly toy with those who are oblivious though. I know I need therapy, that is an understatement. But maybe this daliy HAMB fix is just what I need
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